Addctd2Candy's Hoodstars

Muh Cheese and Other Things

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 16:30:44 GMT

Well since I will be starting my diet Saturday I decided that tomorrow I will eat as much of the bad stuff as I can. On this diet well in the beginning all you can have is fruit, veggies, and water lots of good ol' water. Later on you add in turkey and fish but still none of the good bad food. Ahhh that is going to suck no more of my favs.. Cheese, Bread, Pasta, and Potatoes. I love all kinds of cheese Monteray Jack, Chedder, Brie, Fontina, Asiago, Pasrmasen, Mozerella, Havarti, hell all cheese except for the blue cheese sorry cant get down with the mold ohh or goat cheese either sorry feta chedda is betta lol. Here is my meal plan for tomorrow::

Budde..Bam..Then You Get The Cheese (nice meal plan title right..inside joke)

Breakfast- Egg Sandwich w/ Cheese

Snack- Cheese and Crackers

Lunch- 5 Cheese Ziti pasta

Snack- Potato Chips

Dinner- Salmon w/ Cheesey Mashed Potatoes

Dessert- Chocolate Ice Cream

*washing all that down with Soda yessir*

Laaaaawd I'm going to miss muh cheese and butter lol I may be a little on edge at first you know going thru cheese withdrwals so if I snapp at you, you know why. Dont blame it on me blame it on the cheese. I will keep yall updated on how I'm doing on this diet execpt a blog full of cussing titled boo this damn diet lol. Well let me get back to my cheesy lunch talk to yall later peace...Oh got any good cheesy buttery food ideas let me know so I can try them before 'THE DAY' :O) thanks!!!

Operation Fix Candy Is On

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 17:14:04 GMT

Ok so I figured I had things all together in my life but after venting with a friend I realized that I wasn't as together as I thought I was. I realized some things about myself that I need to change, I know if I don't make those changes now it will only get worse. I have a tendcy to hold things in because I don't want to bother anyone or I avoid the situation because I don't want to feel the pain but as long as I do that I am just setting up this barrier between me and people as well as what I want to become. I have realized that my dad's death and me not really dealing with it may play a roll as into why I am so cold..I have an icebox as Omarion says but I didn't get it my from a past lover well my ex may play a roll in this as well but I think majority is my dad. Ever since he passed I have chosen to not talk about it to anyone I have my nights where I cry to myself but I never sat down with my fam and expressed how I feel. I was so close to him and could tell him anything and once he passed I have just recently realized I shut out the rest of the world. I chose to avoid talk about him and help others instead of asking for the help I need. I don't want to have that talk because I don't want to hurt but I know now I can never move forward completely until the talk occurs.

I also learned that I have a self esteem image issue well no I knew I had that but I just cant seem to get past it. People tell me I'm pretty, I have a cute smile and all but when I look at myself in the mirror I see somebody totally different..I see UGLY. This is why I hate pictures of me ( I think I got that from my mother) and thats why I only have one on here. I also have an issue with watching my self..like I went on cam one time and I had to scroll the screen I just couldn't look at myself. So I have decided that I want to start to fix ME and make ME a better person starting with losing 20 pounds. I have decide starting Saturday I am going back on my strict ass cant eat shit but fruit and veggies (yes that means I will have to cut out muh cheese noooo lol) diet as well as working out I will loose the weight by Jan!! My friend told me maybe I don't have to go to the extreme with it but with me its all or nothing because if I make it wear I cant have it all I will eventually forget about it and not miss it. If I let myself have it every once in awhile it will become all the time thing so I would just as soon cut it all out. Next will be forcing myself to take pics on the Macbook Pro (don't hate Ess/ Dani) using photobooth with my "Insight" built in cam then start posting them on here. Just doing things like that may help me got any ideas let me know..

I have also been hella stressed at work damn I need a vacation Jan cant come soon enough lol. When I say stressed I mean stressed to the point of I cant take this anymore something has to give before I go knucking futz. I have started walking outside when I need a breather or if I am really having a difficult time I pull a dear friends e-mail up and reread it to my self there words of encouragement help get thru my little mini moment. I have also started taking me time when I get home just relaxing doing things that comfort me. I didn't really want to bother anybody with my issues but it was brought to my attention holding things in and not letting how you feel out only puts you in a deeper state of problems. I have chosen not to dwell in my problems and be defeated instead I will start making those needed change to become a better me. So I decided to vent in this blog and whoever has the time to reply can do so. I want to thank Ess, Dani, Kellz, KP, Shar, Robert and everyone else on here who has ever helped me when I needed it. I love yall and i am so blessed to have you guys in my life awww ::tear:: lol. Time to go back to work YaY riiiiight lol so until next time peace..

How To Catch a Loon..

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 18:45:12 GMT

BEWARE they are all around us...Some come off normal just like you and I but within seconds they can turn into crazies who need to be committed, Some are just completely off there rocker...LOONS they are coming out of
the wood works someone must have left the doors to the loonie bin open and they all escaped. There is no telling what might set them off...Sometime its something as simple as :0) and whatever you don't say OYTS around them unless you are prepared to deal with the madness they just can't handle it. So here is how to catch a loon:

:YELLS: OYTS!! Crikey look at them go...remember to keep your distance stay back people you never know what the unstable are capable of. Look at her over there getting some Beeeeebooooo Looooveeee. Ohh and her
Splish Splashing in the tub, wow there's one mumbling obscenities to a tree 'So what your a superstar', and here comes the final one with her atlas so she can stalk him and find out where he is at. Ahhh more are coming out of the shadows slurrping they must have seen light everybody ruuuuunn lets get out of here while we still can :packs up and leaves hoodstars:

OK SO FOR THOSE OF YOU WONDERING IF YOU QUALIFY YOU KNOW YOUR A LOON WHEN....

1) You know your a loon when you make 10 random posts that make no sense whatsoever on every page the artist has.

2) You know your a loon when something as little as :0) sends you on a rampage.

3) You know your a loon when you make 6 million names on all the artist pages because you can't decide if you love them and want to bone or if you want to knock their ass out next time you see them.

4) You know your a loon when you tattoo the artist name or symbol (i.e. Dog Paws or an O Crown) anywhere on your body. Only time that is acceptable is if you are married to said artist.

5) You know your a loon when you have cyber sex with a fake so good that they have you believing they aren't fake even after the REAL artist has said they have no bebo page.

6) You know your a loon when you are over 30 lusting after a younger artist dissing fans a.k.a his fam to get their attention. Lmaoo please like he is going to look at that and go Ohhh that's wifey right there let me send her a private message and get her number.

7) You know your a loon when you think fans leaving POSITIVE comments on an artist page is being on there nut sack.

8) You know your a loon when you ask disrespectful questions out of the blue such as "Have you ever passed gas while f*cking?" WOW SMFH.

9) You know your a loon when you have convinced yourself you are dating the artist and any female said artist shows some attention to gets put on your BEAT DAT ASS list.

AND LAST

10) You know your a loon when...EVERYONE TELLS YOU SO

Ok now if you are reading this laughing your ass off your good free and clear sane in 08! Just 08 tho never know what can happen next year. But if you are reading this getting hella pissed off well...YOU MIGHT JUST BE A LOON. Oh and because it irks the loons OYTS BABY!! and I'M OUT.....

Somebody is About to get a Sidekick LX Where the Sun Dont Shine IS IT YOU??

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 17:16:41 GMT

Ok I decided to make a blog about things that have been irking me lately so here it goes lol

1) FAKE PEOPLE- I can't stand fake people at all if you can't be real with me then I don't need you sorry just the way it goes. It irks the hell out of me that people feel the need to be someone there not smh I don't have time for all that mess. If you feel the need to play games and shit keep it moving shawty you don't know me. I swear fakeness is a bad disease going around so watch out!!

2) USERS- There is nothing worse than someone who uses people oh wait yes there is FAKE USERS. People seem to think I am stupid and dont know what's going on smh I was born at night but not last night. JUST KNOW SWEETHEART I AM ON TO YOU SO GO FIND ANOTHER SAP TO RUN YOUR 'GAME' ON. I actually find it funny that they think they are pulling a fast one over on me little do they know I am one step ahead of them . So to all the fake users GO SIT ON A STICK AND SPIN...OH AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.

3) ANNOYING ATTENTION SEEKERS- It irks the hell out of me that people can't let other people speak or have a moment to shine. Ugh@ the ones who think it's all about ME ME ME smh damn shame. They are so into themselves they cant stop and take a second to help someone else out and then when they dont get the attention they want they either A) throw a tempertanturm like a 2 yr old or B) do something outragous to get people to notice them. It makes me sick damn just be there for someone else for once well wait no if your going to be fake about it don't do it.

OK I THINK THE BEST SOLUTION IS FOR PEOPLE TO STOP WITH THE I LOVE YOU, YOU ARE MY HOMIE FOR LIFE BULLSHIT AND BE REAL. REALNESS IN O8!! OH AND IF YOU ARE READING THIS THINKING ITS ABOUT YOU IT PROBABLY IS ...PEACE, LOVE, GODBLESS OH AND ::IN ROBOT VOICE:: O..Y..T..S!! I'M OUT...

I'm Feeling All Mushy Today

Wed, 21 May 2008 16:27:27 GMT

Today well this whole week I have been feeling mushy awwww I love my 2LC. Ya'll are so wonderful, awesome and idk what else lol. I love chatting with yall every night it helps to come home from work relax, chill and talk to my friends. I know you guys will always be there for me as I will be for you I know it sounds stupid but yall are really like my second family and of course you know shout outs are coming lol. Kellz you are something else you always know how to keep me rolling whether its with the youtube video or our wonderful spoofs. We need to get working on the next one I'm going to need for you to tell Chole nicely and make her ass work downstairs lol. Thanks for always being there for me when I'm bored or need to vent about my boss. Ess you are like the sister I never had. I want you to know I will always be here for you if you need anything and I do mean ANYthing. I hope you are having a wonderful time on your cruise I cant wait to hear about it and see some pix. KP I first want to say congrats on making the list you worked hard and so deserved it. I haven't gotten to talk to you as much lately as the rest but you still are and always will be my e-sister, and no matter what I will always be here for you. Saniiii I love that now everyone uses one of my typos for you there catchy teehee lol!! ok those !! don't feel right to use lmao. I love how you keep me entertained early early in the morning and it would suck if um mama dukes shut it down. So you better get to doing the dishes 'I know that' scrub scrub scrub, bubbles bubbles bubbles . Thanks for all the aim novels they keep me sane at work. Shar I haven't gotten to talk to you as much as the others but you are one cool person and a wonderful friend. I enjoy our nightly roasts and lets not forget I spy wooo lol. Thanks for being such a great friend. Cha now on to your crazy ass lol j/p I enjoy talking with you daily and am always her for you if you need it girl. Last but not least Budda you have been such a great friend to me the past few months, and I love chatting with you every night. Just when I think I have seen it all from you, I get something else you continue to amaze me. Thanks for 'schooling me' and all the words of wisdom I will make sure I always listen to your order lol!!! Ok still !! doesn't feel right lmao I just want to say I love my 2LC and will always be here whenever you need me via phone, email, aim or the stars awww ::group hug::.

Lost, Lonely and in need of Love

Wed, 07 May 2008 16:45:38 GMT

Well it's raining today which fits my mood perfectly ::sigh::. Lately all I can think about is finding my soul mate, my other half the one who completes me. I don't know if it's because I'm getting older or what I guess my inner clock is ticking lol. I'm tired of coming home from a long day at work to nobody, I'm tired of being alone. All I want is some male companionship (no not just sex)...I want to come to home to someone who I can share my day with, a man who will listen to what I have to say be there for me and let me cry on his shoulders. I want someone who I can cater to who will do the same for me. I want a man to cuddle and hold me all night...one who can weeeeerrrrrrrrk me (although thats not really what its about for me). I want to hug kiss and act all lovey dovey in public...::sigh:: I want love. Its been almost 3 and half years since my last relationship I have had some little dates but nothing relationship wise so I feel long overdue. I'm 24 and still a virgin when I tell people that I feel like a big ass loser like the guy in that movie 40 yr. old virgin lol. I mean I am sooo ready to give it up my hormones lately lol wooo but at the same time I don't want to give it to just anybody I want it to be someone I love and truly care about I guess i'm just a hopeless romantic in that way. I mean I almost gave it up to my ex but he kept pressuring me and it didn't feel right looking back on it now i'm sooo glad I didn't do it. In my search to find a man I have realized some things about myself. I don't think I can really blame my ex for this I mean it is his fault but on the other hand I need to not let that get to me. My ex made me feel worthless unpretty as tlc would say, I remember wearing something that showed my tummy a little bit and he told me to go put something else on I didn't have the body to be wearing that. Now mind you I'm not fat i'm not rail skinny either but him telling me things like that ruined myself esteem and I guess thats my fault for letting a man no a BOY get to me like that. So now I feel like no guy would want me, I'm not pretty enough for a man to want to date me things like that. I guess I need to learn to love myself before another man will. ::sigh:: I would just love for once a guy to tell me how beautiful/gorgeous I am. I know it sounds stupid but that would really get my self esteem back on track. I really shouldn't need a man to tell me that for me to see it but bottom line when I look in the mirror I don't see pretty I see a fat icky girl and I want to change that idk how...I'm so lost I don't know I just don't know. I just know I don't want my worse fear of dying alone to come true. I just idk man i'm in tears right now I just feel so alone and lost I guess I need some advice male and female. I do want to thank my girl sani for talking to me on aim this morning I appreciate it you helped me see some things in myself I need to fix.

Back from New Orleans

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 17:00:00 GMT

Even tho the trip was planned last minute I still had a blast, I'm glad I decided to go down there and meet up with Ess. I was debating on going because one it was last minute and two I didn't know if me and Ess would get along. You know its one thing to be tight over the internet but sometimes when you people in person you get a different vibe. It worked out great, we got along, had a lot of fun together she is even going to let me stay at her place when I go to Atlanta. I'm cool with that as long as she doesn't sick her animals on me lol j/k j/k I love you Edd don't want you gettin the taser on me lol. Oh and KP you were right Ess is a tiny little thing, there is no way you are 5ft girl, 4'10 maybe lol. We went to bourbon street and can I just damn Ess if you get that everywhere you go I feel for you. I mean all these dudes in the club kept coming up, trying to dance with her even after she said no, and then this one dude she told no followed her like he was stalking his prey smh. Guys in New Orleans are crazy aggressive or maybe I just hadn't been to a club in awhile. I would be dancing and dude would just come up behind me grab my hips and start humping, some dudes took it to far trying to reach for the goodies down low ain't happen I tried to be nice give them one dance and walk away. But OMG this one dude was just humping the shit out of me like a dog in heat so mid dance I had to cut it short I turned around and it was a 46 year old white guy smh...wth he could be my damn daddy he better go on somewhere with that shit lol. After utopia we hit up another club and we were in there chillin until Ess's people were like lets get out of here now. I didn't know what the hell happened but come to find out the dude in front of us had gun smh why take a gun to the club don't make no damn sense. So after that we left a nd when we started to head for the car 5am smh we couldn't even get 2 feet without somebody hollering at us. First there was a fight in the middle of the street they beat that guy up pretty badly blood all over the side walk, then every 5 seconds it was hey shawty whatcha name is, hey baybaby can I holler at you for a sec. Some guys even got bold and grabbed at Ess smh and I mean like grabbed at her belt, shirt, her ass, she took care of that tho got out her taser for they ass she didn't have to use it but she was damn sure ready to lol. New Orleans guys are a mess a hot mess smh. Now the rest of the 2LC needs to hook up and meet lol...hmm maybe Cali next year? Thanks Ess I had a good time, tell your friends thanks for making the night eventful. Now time for me to come to the atl meet up with you and Amiye maybe this november?

Doing the TEA DANCE

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 23:24:27 GMT

Wooo that is the ish right there shout to the KOD for showing us the dance lol all you need is a cup and a spoon and your ready to go. Watch in few weeks that will be the dance at the clubs instead of cranking it the will be tea dancing lmao. I just wanted to say I'm in a really good place right now thanks to god, my family, friends, and the 2LC. I want to thank my 2LC for chatting with me every night, it helps me get away from the hard days at work my boss has really been on trip mode lately. Ess for being there for me when I needed to talk I want you to know that I'm always here for you via aim, text or phone, helping me convert Kellz (wooo we did it) and most importantly thanks for being my espn sis, it's weird how we are almost always on the same page, and let's not forget always getting BUSTED together lmao. KP I want to thank you for listening to me vent about my job I'm glad I have someone to let it out to because if I didn't I might wind up sidekickin his ass. I'm always here for you girl if you need me you know where to reach me on the stars lol. Kellz in denial ass I have loved converting you to O'ism woo it's finally complete to and this time you cant deny it its highlighted for the whole world to see (thanks ess). I also want to thank you for keeping me rolling every night especially miracle you killed the turn and the tea dance "dang you spilling all the tea girl" you are one BADD chick lol. Saniiiii I know you hate that name but it's stuck with you now teehee lol. I want to say I enjoy your random pop ups every night you always late but it's cool I still got love for ya. Oh yeah and fug them haters girl they just jelly lol. Cha thanks for ims at all hours you keep me sane while im at work lol even tho you a bad influence telling me to sidekick my boss lol. Also want to give a shout out to Raphy, Jax, Shar, liah, chelle, em and everyone else I talk to on a regular basis thanks for making my boring nights at home alone enjoyable lol. Damn I need to find that island lol.

Ok So I Was Bored Sunday Night

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 16:52:18 GMT

and decided to try Eharmony (the dating website) for fun. I thought hey couldn't hurt and who knows I may find me a casper. Well I took the looooooong ass survey about what I want in a man, my personality, and things I like to do. Well I got some matches back and a few sounded decent so I went to check out there profile to see there pic. Boooo you have to subscribe to see a picture of the person and I really didn't want to but one guy was from my area and he sounded like a good guy. So I thought I would subscribe get Candaay a date for Friday night. Well I go to subscribe and find out its 59 dollars a month or you can do 12 months at $20 but you have to pay the $251 up front. Smh hell nooooo I ain't paying that much to see a pic or so I thought lol. I decided to do one month see what comes of it. So I go and look at all my matches profiles/photos and maaaaannn I was soooo pissed. Two of my matches were fruity, Two were punk hardcore rockers, 1 was a wannabe thug smh@his profile saying he was 30 my ass he was at least 40, then I get to the last guy and wth did they try to set me up with. His profile says he is 32 yeah maybe 20 years ago, he is a chubby balding white man boooooo. I even specified men between the ages of 22-28 so why the hell were all my matches 27 and up. I wasted 59 dollars on that mess smh I know the month isn't up but I got some more matches today and they aren't any better. It's not all about looks for me my main thing is the personality but I mean come on I'm not dating someone old enough to be my damn daddy smh. Ugh that site is boooo and if I find me a casper on there trust me you will know about it I will be aiming all your asses lol. Oh and if you want to see the pics of the dudes aim me and I will show you a hot mess I tell you.

Who is the most cool person on hoodstars and who is the most funniest?

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 05:39:57 GMT

Hmm well the coolest people on hoodstars would have to be my 2LC woooo you know who you are lol and Omarion cant forget him lol he's a pretty cool guy and a sweetie to but this wasnt a who's the sweetest question sooo moving on lmao. Lets see and the funniest would have to be Kellz ( Mrs. Youtube ) thanks for all the videos girl they keep me rollin and China (No I dont have your money so stop asking lmao).

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